This is bad
I have a lot of artworks waiting to be drawn
at this very moment as I am typing this journal

but somehow I can't draw my works anymore
it's like a puzzle in my head
solving and cracking it
but I can't answer
its too hard to process

Is it because I love someone
new
Is it becuase Im torn apart by
the fact that she doesn't love me
more than a friend\

I can't express it perfectly
at my journal

Knowing that it's not just about a crush

It's about me
It's about my true feelings
towards her

I need to breathe...
I need to think...

I need.... Her

I keep on changing it over and over and
over again

And all that is left
is a jargon of concepts to a mind of
miserable person